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2023

 aku terjumpa blog lama yang ni and bila aku baca balik semua posts aku... aku senyum sorang2.

macam2 aku rasa.


sedih.

happy.

marah.

malu.


semuanya lah.

aku pun tak pasti kenapa aku stop update blog aku.

mungkin lepas aku kena panic disorder, aku alami depression yang teruk sampaikan buat aku lupa untuk update blog ni.

kalau aku boleh jumpa diri aku yang dulu kat blog ni, aku nak cakap...

jangan putus asa, jangan sedih.

kau masih hidup, masih bernafas sampai tahun  ni.

jangan malu, hidup dengan penuh suka tanpa ada sesalan.

semua ni bukan salah kau.

tuhan dah tuls, dah atur semuanya.


kalau aku baca balik postings yang lama, mmg aku hidup dengan melulu. penuh dengan darah muda. tanpa agak2. berani. now, aku dah cecah 30an. aku baca semua tu balik dengan senyum, ada rasa malu, ada rasa bersalah, happy. 


mungkin aku akan buat blog baru.

sebab aku nak move on.

sebab blog ni banyak kenangan pahit manis yang aku sesalkan.

dan ni mungkin last post untuk blog ni.


selamat tinggal aku yang lama.

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