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PANIC DISORDER?

Semalam, hari Sabtu...tibalah detik aku struggle dengan diri aku sendiri
Malam tu aku tak boleh tidur...sebab aku nervous...
Nervous sebab apa?

Sebab UiTM

Haha boleh tak macam tu?
Aku mmg macam tu, paranoid. Gila and memang kena jumpa psychology la aku kata kau.
aku stress dengan penyakit aku nih...
Aq tak boleh dikelilingi dengan org ramai, aku rimas. Aq rase panik pun ade, gelisah.
And kekadang bila aku tengok watak Cha Ji Hun dalam Protect The Boss tu...aku pikir, watak mamat ni macam aku ke penyakit dia?

Panic disorder

Adoii... aq tak tau macam mana penyakit ni ade dalam diri aku.
aku mmg pasan jugak selama ni, aku kuat panik.
fine, maybe aku nampak tenang dari luar, but inside i'm seriously dying.

Malam tu aku tak leh tidur, jantung berdebar...macam nak pitam, macam2 alu pikir.
aq fobia sebab ade satu peristiwa belaku kat aku masa kat Matrik, yang melibatkan gastric aku...memang...aku dah serik

so, dalam gelisah malam tu, aku text sorang akak ni, akak Ida Minami aku panggil
aq luahkan segalanya kat dia malam tu and sumpah, setiap kata2 yang dia reply kat aku, memang betul2 berguna... serta merta malam tu aq rase tenang sikit, termasuk la malam ni. Alhamdulillah...aku dah tenang sikit...

sume sebab dia. kalau la aku tak text dia, mmg sampai bila2 aku tak leh tidor.
Thanks akak.

Kalau betul la aku ade panic disorder tuu...
Mmg satu mimpi  ngeri bagi aku sebab petanda2 dia mmg sume aq ade...

Your heart pounds and you can’t breathe. You feel dizzy and sick to your stomach. You may even feel like you’re dying or going crazy. Left untreated, panic attacks can lead to panic disorder and other problems. They may even cause you to withdraw from normal activities

Sumpah memang aku ade sume tanda nih.
Yang terbaru, aku da start avoid sume orang.
Everytime dorg ajak kuar, aku bagi seribu alasan tanak naik tren sebab aku tak suka berhimpit dengan orang ramai

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