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AYAH

harini, ade satu perkara yang memang menyentuh hati aq.

benda nie blaku tadi, time kat kmns, mase bapak aq nak jemput aq kat Pilah. aq dah cakap kat mak aq suh smpai awal, kul 1pm camtu. aq pun siap2 ah packing sume...then i got a called. from my mother, and she said, "Tak boleh masuk, guard tak bagi. Kul 2pm baru leh," and aq macam, WHATTA FUCK? Hello, slama nie ok jep, yang dia suka suki nak buat undang2 baru asal? bodoh r. makin nyampah lak aq ngan kmns nie. dah r ade masalah air. fuck. fuck and fuck. dalam banyak2 blok (5blok), just 1 blok je yang ade air. ko bayangkan ah, mmg cam sial r kan. student bribu kat sini, bilik air bape puluh jer. cam shit ah. sorry r kalau bnyak mncarut an, tapi aq mmg dah tak tahan. Pengetua kmns yang tak brape nak 'function' otak dia tu bukan leh pakai sangat!

Okay, cut that craps out and lets back to the original story.

Nanti makin panjang lebar lak aq citer benda tak puas hati aq nie. =_=

Right...then aq time tu pun cam...apa patut aq buat? barang bnyak nak kena bawak balik ni. Beg agak2 bnyak jugak la. 4buah beg and 4botol air (besar). aq bawak balik sume baju kurungs and baju lain la, nak suh basuh kat umah. sini an takde air! so...mmg bnyak la barang time tu. =_=;; aq suh mak aq tunggu, sampai kul 2pm t, masuk jela. bratur panjang pun panjang la weh. coz mmg banyak barang giler!

then, i got another called from my mom. she said, "Adik letak sume barang adik kat dalam beg besar tu, then tunggu ayah datang amik, bawak beg tu," and aq pun macam... Jap, ayah datang amik? "Ayah nak datang camne?" the my mom said...

"Ayah jalan kaki pegi sane,"

aq seriously speechless. Bukan apa, jauh kot tempat guard tu dari hostel aq. amik mase 15mins kot! panas lagi! puase lagi! "Tak payah la! Nyusahkan jer!" aq cakap camtu, then terus mak aq kata, "tak payah, ayah dah pegi dah pun," and memang aq cakap ko, aq rase time tu...bersalah gila! tak tau nape. marah pun ade, marah kat sistem matrik aq nie yang cam bangang!!!

nak tak nak, aq bukak balik ah beg2 plastik aq yang aq isi barang tu and letak dia dalam beg Polo besar tu. kesimpulannya, dari 8beg, jadi 3beg jer yang aq bawak. aq terpakse tinggalkan botol air besar2 tu coz ni nak kena berjalan kaki balik ke tempat guard tu. Kitaorang pun kuar and bejalan kaki. ayah aq bawak beg Polo tu dengan beg pegang tu. (aq xtau nak describe camne) aq nak pegang beg lagi satu, ayah aq tak bagi and kitaorang pun jalan r kat pejalan kaki tu...ramai tol budak2 pndang.

seriously, aq rase tak sedap hati giler. pandangan dorang tu macam...aq ni anak ynag kuang ajar. bagi benda berat2 kat bapak aq...adoiii....aq mlenggang je time tu, bapak aq ynag tarik beg tu sume..aq nak offer, dia tak bagi...aq rase sedih giler time tu...korang bayangkan, jauh tau tak perjalan dia. dengan panas agy...macam2 bnda melayang kat fikiran aq.

camne kalau suatu hari aq kecewakan bapak aq?
camne kalau suatu hari aq xdapat nak skor kat matrik ni?

bnda2 cmtu r yang aq terbayang pun...aq bnci buat parents kecewa. itu yang paling aq takot...then, harini, bapak aq sanggop datang redah pepanas2, jalan naik bukit ke hostel aq yang jauhnya 15mins semata2 nak tolong aq angkut beg and bawak aq pegi tempat scan kad tu...siyes weh, aq sedih. kalau aq boleh nangis, time tu jugak aq nangis.

bnda ni dah kira beban bagi aq.

bnda ni aq takot.

bnda nie jugakla yang kekadang buat aq fikir yang aq tak patot memain kat matrik nie and buat sehabis baik demi parents aq, especially my dad. harini mmg aq dapat pengajaran jugak la, bukan nak kata aq ni memain kat matrik...tapi as...as like macam...penguat tau tak?

aq cuma harap, aq dapat berjaya kat sini and dapat buat parents aq bangga and happy.

Amin.

Adik sayang ayah...I love you, dad.

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