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DISAPPOINTED WITH MY OWN PARENTS

minggu nie, mmg minggu yg teruk skali. teruk sesangat. aq baru aje confessed kat parents aq kos ape SEBENARNYA yg aq nak amik. actually, bukan dari dulu ke aq dah post kat sini, yg aq sebenarnya suka bnda yg involve food kan? like chef. aq nak jadi chef and aq cakap kat parents aq, and they like...macam xyakin kat aq. tetibe je nak mintak jd chef ni asal? xpenah2 masak kat umah. bila aq cakap, reaksi dorg mmg mghampakan aq giler. dorg siyes xyakin and aq mmg dah agak dah bnda nie. aq pilih food tech sbb maybe kos tu mnampakkan kos food2 ni nmpak up sikit, but it's not. hati aq nie lebihh nak jadi chef, aq suka mkanan, aq nak create makanan and makanan je wat aq happy.


too bad, mak bapak aq sndiri xpaham.


boleh pulak dorg kata, terpengaruhh citer korea kuat sangat la, itula. aq mcam, wtf??? (jugakla) agak cursing r dalam hati aq. knapa dorg xyakin kat aq?? asal dorg macam nie? dorg kata dorg support je apa2 kos yg aq nak mula2 tu. then, bila aq cakap aq nak jadi chef, mula buat muka. pissed off jugak r aq kan??


itula, dulu mak aq penah citer, ade ank kawan dia terpakse ikut kos parents dia suka. then mak aq kata kesianla, itula, patutnya ikut kos ape yg anak nak la...tau pulak dia nak rase macam tu. tapi bila dah terkena batang idung sndiri, mula la... bukan nak kata apa, mula cakap xsrupa bikin...siyes, aq bengang giler. dorg macam main2 ngn kos aq.


bila bapak aq kata, "Ade ni ha, kolej memasak ni," then mak aq buat muka, "mana meh sini," dia pun bace r dengan muka masammmmmmmmmmmmm dia tu, "Nah, pegi sini la, kata nak memasak sangat," perghh, mmg panas hati aq. dorg pandang HINA sngat kos ni asal!?????? apa ni mak? mak seriously TAK support aq langsung ans aq SERIOUSLY KECEWA DENGAN PARENTS AKU SENDIRI.


aq macam...asal la mcam nie. knapa jd camni? aq terus naik atas, tinggal mak bapak aq kat bawah, masuk bilikh, then burst!!! crying.


aq nangis, but akak aq ade dalm bilik. semak r dia tu, dah tau aq nk nagis, tinggal r aq sorg2 dalam bilik. cam nak sepak je. hisshh! sma gak, xreti bahase. boleh lak tnya "kenapa2?" macam aq nak citer lak kat dia. =_=;; bnda ni stat dari kul 4.30pm aq nangis, aq duk baring kat katil tu , dengan mata lebam2 smpai kul 6.30pm, semayang sume, then turun bwah balik sbb lapar and nak tgok family outing. haha


tapi mmg awkward la kan situasi tu. 


time aq baring2 tu, aq mula fikir, "Fine, dorg nak aq pilih keja yg standard doktor, cikgu,yg up2 la kononnya, fine, aq amik kos fisioterapy," coz bidang tu mak aq penah kata kat aq, suh pilik bidang tu jugak dalam pilihan2 tu kan. ok fine, aq pilih. tapi jangan nak kata pas nie, aq GAGAL ujian semester ke ape, jangan nak marah aq. aq pilih kos tu sebab dorg nak sangat kan??? ok ok, aq amik. aq amik and kiranya aq TERPAKSE amik and buat keja dengan xbrapa spenuh hati. hidup aq nak gagal, gagal la. aq dah malas nak pikir sangat!!!!!!


aq lepaskan impian aq nak jd chef, keja under hotel, buat kedai sndiri, sume aq lepaskan sebab PERENTS aq sndiri. and now, starting now, aq nie mmg seorang yg xkan HAPPY smapi bila2 dengan kos 'baru' yg aq pilih disebabkan parents aq sndiri.


its kinda kurang ajar la kan, tapi bagi aq, parents aq sndiri yg rosakkan hidup aq. aq percya dorg akan support aq, but dorg tak. titik nokhtah, bubye!!!!!!

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  1. eunsook12 May 2011 at 00:17

    Maybe you should slow talk to them.. about what you wanted.. what's the benefit about learning culinary.. kalau tak ikut minat kang.. susah.. because you're so not into it.. try la slow talk dgn diorg..

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  2. qijae12 May 2011 at 10:38

    dah cuba slow talk, tak menjadi. kalau bincang, msti kata, "mak xyakin," "Nakke kos ni?" then buat mukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...............................biarlah, amik je kos apa yg dia nak sangat tu...=_=;; try jela slow2

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