1993 Life

my calculator is alive!!! oh yeahh buat panic je semalam! anywayss kena tunggu air tu kering duluuu alhamdulillah sobsss

oh yaaa... ini kisah kalkulator kuuu... bermula malam tadi bila aq nak study calculus aq pasan aq tak menjumpai cal aku lalu aq panik cari sana sini geledah beg dan akhirnya tumpas aq tensyen dan meminjam cal Ain buat punya buat, masa pun berlalu~ "Ni kalkulator kau kan?" Mira menyapa of fuck damn yeah! thats mine! mana kau jumpa? dalam bilik Liza --" asal aq takde memori pape pasal aq letak cal aq dalam bilik Liza anyway bila aq tgok cal aku omg ade sos tercalit sikit kat cal aq lalu aq menjadi panik sekali lagi aq cuci cal aq dengan air paip aq mandikan beliau "Bukan rosak ke kalau buat camtu?" oh dayummm~ tidakkan ku berfikir... and yesss... skang cal aq tidak boleh ditekan nombornya... tidak boleh diguna sama sekali... selama 7tahun aku bersama mu kau banyak memberi ku kenangan yg terindah pmr, spm~ oh calculator kuu maafkan daku atas kecuaian ku...

i met him again dear boy, why you always showing up in front of me? aku time tu nak beli makanan dia pun sama dah la kitaorg nak beli kat kedai yang sama but memandangkan aq taknak tegur dia, i decided to go after my friend kat kedai lagi satu still my eyes were following him at that time my heart, my mind, my body... they all gone crazy... nak tegur dia atau tanak? at last, aku biarkan dia berlalu pergi macam tu je bodoh ke aku? aku tak tau la... i could just look at his back masa tu... it hurts it killed me so much that time

aku rasa masa macam berlalu dengan cepatttt je skang and aq rasa for this semester aku ngaku aku mcm banyak main2 aku dah tak rajin macam dulu why is that? aku risau ni skang ade 3weeks je lagi tinggal and after that study weeks... hope semuanya berjalan lancar arghhh stressnya life cuma kena pandai manage time je buat soalan past years sume dah xboleh main2 dah ni banyak benda bterabur sangat dah nih

i met him a guy who made me cried twice the moment i saw you i thought it was a different person because of your hairstyle later when you met my eyes and you smiled, ahhh... it was you i saw you talked with your friend uhuh, never mind, i should leave... just leave and dont look back then you called my name my heart thump! i bit my lips, i didnt want to turn my back but i did i even slow down my steps i was stupid isnt obvious? i still like him i like him you talked with me, you smiled, you acted like the way you used to be with me it hurts so much i faked my smiles a lot, you know? we chat a little bit we laughed, it was awkward i hate this i dont wanna meet with him again i dont wanna stop my steps when you called my name i dont wanna fake my smiles, pretending like nothing happened despite i used to cry because of you stop doing everything that could make me fall in love with you again i dont wanna get hurt again and again it's ti...

uwahhhh~ along saya pegi Korea esok dan saya sangat jealous anywaysss along ada kata nak pape tak haha well oh well mestilah ada kan??? aq order beg and baju Nii kat along muahahaha harga tuh...aq agak2 kompem cecah rm500 lebih gak nanti aq habiss pape jelah once in a lifetime nak tunggu aq pegi korea mmg tak dapat la kan? so alang2 da ada org offer~ haha =='' pape pun have a safe journey, have fun there along! ^^

tomorrow got test 2 chemistry! wish me luck! and Ain, happy bithday to you :)

fuck yesssss! the end of physics presentation, everyone~!! aq rasa presentation tadi berjalan dengan agak lancar (?) la jugakkk anyway thanks to Shah, epul and Zuqi sorry sbb aq rase masa present tu aq xde la banyak ckp mana kan? T.T omg guysss... sorry gegiler bukan apa, aq patutnya present 6.2 and 6.3 but kami dipilih scara randomnya untuk present 6.5 and sedikit 6.4 pape pun, benda alah ni da habis and no more sakit jantung or hari bdebar untuk aku haha *mcm aku kan anime ni? cuma tak pakai spek je. kbai. ahaha*

aku nak kasut oh kasut bila lah aq dapat beli kauu~ and azreen, aq da baca blog kau kayyy jangan wat aq jeless kaysss sobsss oh kasut...

aq punya semangat sampai duk tweet kat twitter yg kononnya ni first year aq puasa penuh tapi alih2... pagi nih... abc pulak... last puasa, last iftar... arghh ruginya! anyway kiranya aq kena ganti sehari jelah aigooo pikir2 balik... WHY!!!! sayangnya! wuuuu~

esok raya and esok juga lah aq balik kelantan my lovely hometown yay yes... whatever duduk sane seminggu lama kot harap2 ade lah aktiviti bila duduk sana takdelah bosan sangat dahla period ni urghhh nak raya kat kl outing ngan kekawan lagi bagos =.=

sepatutnya janji Izzati, Alyaa, Shifa, Azreen and aku kuar mkn sesama kat Black Canyon jj tuh but ntah camne tarikh 17 tu Izzati xdapat join sbb dia da balik kg time tu and Alyaa last2 minit tak dpt join sbb dia xde transport balik nanti so kesimpulannya aku, az and xifa je melantak tul anak dara dua org nih nampak tak mknn kami? sedappp sangat! lepas makan, kami meneruskan perjalanan kami mencar kasut raya (raya la sangat)  and kebanyakkannya takde size fuck la sial 3kasut aq berkenan and sume da habis size sumpah kecewa... az pun sama... camne ni babe? haha T.T selepas kecewa... kami dengan berat hati pegi Secret Recipe for a second round New York Cheese Cake and Hot Cappuccino  melantak habis2 samnil bebual and terkuar bab ' M ' sial lah weh! hahahahaha papepun satu barang yg aq beli kat jj is selipar comel nih seronok kuar dengan korg even kita bertiga jer

Pada hari yang mulia lagi berbahagia ini aku dan family aq (mak and kakak) iftar di Pizza Hut! this pizza is made from heaven  lama siak tak makan cheeeeeeeeese ~!! Burp Alhamdulillah ~!! haha btw jumpa pekerja pizza laki ni, budak lagi, comel je dia. Penat bkerja sampai peluh2. Cian dia. <3

harini bila aq bebuka puasa makan semeja dengan dia... entah kenapa aq tak boleh pandang muka dia langsung... dia tak tau lagi yang aq dah tau pasal benda tu... kalau dia tau... how would he react? he wouldnt be interested with this, for sure aku tau or aku tau dia kesah apa kan... but still i'm broken aku maybe akan buat hubungan kitaorg konon2 still nampak normal tapi susah lah... aq tak rasa aq nak tegur dia lagi... hmm nope

so here is me updating blog at 4am crazy? no its a normal thing lah waiting fer Sahur class at 12pm and . . . . I'm going back to kl today!! yay! :D

ouhh fuck. why everybody here so cute? Ren why you so pwetty ??? Oh shit I'm confused with your gender now...

oh yeah class habis awal harini got no bel... all Listening Test and presentation Chapter 6 aku sume postpone after Raya haha lega and kosong sikit pemikiran aku tambah2 lagi esok class physics pun cancel lol and and and apa lagi kan? esok only got 1 class je calculus kalau takde class calculus tu mmg aq balik harini damn it

Aku lagi stress untuk presentation chapter 6 hari Selasa ni dari Test 2 Physics aku esok (Isnin)

Inna Lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un surely we belong to Allah and to Him shall we return I'm so sorry to hear about your loss... May Shah's uncle rest in peace dan ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 beriman. Amin. Al-Fatihah.

Shah had watched me cried for the second time at that moment, he never stop from blaming himself for telling me the truth it wasnt your fault, babe and it is better for you to tell me rather than keep it as a secret and let me fall in love deeper with a wrong person again and again it hurts of course it is but i feel relieve because whats important, i have my friends with me and thank you Shah ... for everything ...

exactly aq tak tau apa masalah kau kau tau tak da banyak kali aku nangis sebab kau? and lepas aku tau apa yang kata pasal aku malam tu sumpah aku tersentap kau tak selesa sbb aku selalu sentuh2 kau? kenapa kau tak cermin diri kau dulu before kau kuarkan statement mcm uh? aku nak ingatkan kau sikit kau pun PERNAH sentuh aku kau sentuh bahu aku, kau sentuh rambut aku apa semua tu? ke sbb mentang2 kau da tau aku suka kau, kau mcm ego sikit? kau asal nak main tarik tali dengan aku? seriously lepas aq dengar je kau ckp mcm tu aq bangun tinggalkan meja yang aq makan masa bebuka dengan kawan2 aku aku nangis Shah kejar aku, dia ingat salah dia nope, it wasnt his fault. aku nangis bukan sbb dia bagi tau kebenaran ke apa aku nangis sbb aku tak sangka kau ckap macam tu pasal aku apa, ingat aku sangap sangat nak sentuh kau? you used to be someone that i like but now, you're just a stranger. aku mmg tak boleh nak pandang muka kau langsung aku suka kau, aku siyes ikhlas suka kau hat...