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got my MCM backpack!! excited excited excited haha

rumah takde air ... shit ... nasib esok aq balik Pilah ... sampai sana je aq mandi, shampu rambut puas2 berak jugak lama tak melepas keras dah weh... sedapnya mandi ... dapnya... dap...

babi asal aq mimpi kau bodo aq tak sangka kau!? kau? kau masuk mimpi aq? cam celaka tul... dalam mimpi tu asal kau pegang rambut aq doh asal kau usap rambut aq bodo asal asal asal asal aq mimpi kau jantan dah la kitaorg berdua dalam kereta myvi dia uh pastu dia dengan topi dia suasana dlm tu elok pulak tak gado, tak mencarut kitarg steady holy fuck dont tell me we were couple in that fucking dream holy shit holy bastard noooooo!! aq rase ni kali kedua kot aq mimpi sal kau babi babi babi

ahhh... sejak akhir2 ni... iaitu semalam aku sakit sakit gastric, angin dicampur dengan sakit period mcm trseksa gila bunyi dia kan? well, mmg aq terseksa pun. mmg, okay! maybe sbb haritu aq ta makan nasi diet kononnye and aq pegi tibai minum coffee starbucks lepas tu terus angin perut aq ew ew ew... aq rase aq dah ta boleh nak pandang coffee lagi dah minuman bercaffeine la for short kan... aq akan stop dgn pengambilan caffeine buat sementara waktu ni sbb setiap kali aq pikir and bau aq rase nak throw up ... shit

bought a new Marie Claire bag i am a girl lol this redness represent brave ! and sexy and what else... shit, me and handbag... i dont think so .

hey!! the hottest bitch in Kuala Lumpur is backkk!! i'm home !! rolling on my bed~!! happily surfing the internet~ weehee~ kkekekekeke esok jogging ! insyaAllah... a-must-do list!

recommend this song for you to listen it's a really good song which give me energy every time i listened to this song! basically, this song is from Paradise Kiss anime. and i love the anime too. lols and this is the singer. Tommy February 6 .  pelik2 je nama. haha.  but she really has a unique voice. let's take a look for the lyrics! I dashed out at 0 o’clock in the morning I kicked the door open My glass slippers shattered And my dress tore, too Hey, aren’t you shocked? Even if I chased after you, you wouldn’t come My tears overflow and I can’t run anymore… It just might be jealousy… It’s-so-pain-ful…!! “Lonely in Gorgeous” yeah… Party night… I’m breaking my heart I want you to find me immediately and embrace me The headlights shine …where are you bad boy ? Wipe away my tears with the scarf of love I can’t see anything I want to scrape up stardust And hurl it at you Why do you care? And yet you are only able to love yourself… I jus...

arghh!! lega lepas hantar outline bel and lab report chemistry !! terasa beban tu dah berkurangan sedikit!! yeahh !!

harini aq mmg bad mood kat class aq tak bercakap banyak pun sebab aq bad mood agak bodoh sebenarnya but still ianya sesuatu yg aq xsuka, kan? anyway... petang tu ade class bel tau. sejam je sbb nak hantar outline tu and... yeah all of a sudden, lepas aq gosok gigi and prepare nak ke class tetibe aq terpandang satu baju biru yg familiar mira estrada dtg uma aq rupenya and dia dtg semata2 nak hantar chocolate Kisses and note sweet kan dia? aku tau, aku tak patut marah and bad mood smpaikan tempias dia kena dekat orang2 yg aq sayang sorry, Mira. and korg sume... and chocolate tu... aq tgah makan la ni skang! nomnomnom hahaha

harini aq jadi jahat ... aq jahat ... aq ponteng class physics... and aq ponteng hbu jugak... aq jahat ... ntah kenapa aq down lately... aq rase punca dia sbb aq gain weight .. takyah ckp la aq sendiri tau aq dapat rase and plus, i havent work out since i stayed in uitm tak jog tak apa... aq rase stress... aq ni jenis yg suka bersukan suka anything or any sports yg mengeluarkan peluh but here i am... trap in the middle of jungle and yeah... feels sucks ... minggu depan cuti christmas ... aq akan spend hari aku dgn jogging je pagi petang! stress!

okay okay okay aq rase excited nak update skang sbb aq nak citer pasal Sir Wan ! tau x Sir Wan tu sape? tau? tau? Sir Wan tuuuu lecturer physics kitaorg for sem 2 (sem lepas la) and pagi tadi berlaku sesuatu yg unexpected ! well, obviously sebab aq teruja mcm ni is... Sir Wan tu mmg popular dikalangan girls~ attitude dia yg strict , berdedikasi and berkarisma ketika mengajar mmg mencairkan kiranya sume suka dia sbb dia sangat... wow... profesional when teaching ok ok potong sume tu~ tadi sementara nak tunggu students lain kuar dari bk yg bakal aq guna for bel... aq duduk lepak luar jap with Ain and then aq terpandang Sir Wan and dia pun pandang aku we were like... hmmm dia kept je pandang aq... and satu senyuman excited terukir di bibir aq and aq lafazkan... "Assalamualaikum, Sir," and guess what! DIA SENYUM !!! HE SMILED FOR A FUCK'S SAKE !! tau kenapa aq excited? before aq senyum, dia senyum dulu dari aq which mean... dia ingat aku! ...

huwarghh sejak dinnie memperkenalkan aku kat Veo which is an online shopping website , aq da order 2 items ! fuck fuck fuck melayang duit aku tapi baju2 kat sana sume boleh tahan sobss.... aq beli sweater and long shirt satu sobs sobs mmg nak kena mintak duit belanja lebih la dari bapak aq but kalau dia tanya... harap2 dia tak tanya... haha... haha... maybe those items will arrive next week gosh... im excited ! harap2 sume baju tu muat ~

semalam dorg buat surprise mini birthday party kat aq well aq memang tak expect LANGSUNG okay? and mira si estrada tu mmg pelakon yg baik mula2 dorg punya plan nak happykan dinnie sbb unfortunate thing happened to her broke up with 3 years boyfriend oh well thats sucks and dipendekkan citer aq, syaza and estrada duk umah while mek and dinnie pegi beli kek, pasa malam melang uh sampai2 rumah punyalah aq bersemangat nak kemas rumah, sapu lantai and even mopping the floor especially bilik aku (no wonder aq ade instinct nk kemas) lepas mandi tu, si estrada suruh aq cepat2 mandi but still aq xsyak pape lepas salin baju sume, dia tetibe tarik aq masuk bilik mek berbual lah, itulah... and tetibe dia kata "Weh, aq tak pernah tgok bilik kau. Jom teman aq. Aq takot ," haa... sejak tu aq mula pelik but still aq teman dia pegi bilik aq kepelikkan kedua pintu bilik aq tu tertutup setahu aq, pintu tu terbukak tadi sbb aq yg kemas bilik aq sambil membe...

celebrating my birthday alone is not so cool but yeah, i'm already used to it right now... alone in my room all my housemates went out to Seremban leaving me alone lol a birthday cake to me yay! :')

happy birthday to me! thanks for those who were wishing me i dont need a birthday present because just having my friends around me is more than enough i love you all

WHY WOULD HE SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT I WAS SPEECHLESS  AND EMBARRASSED FUCK !

i just knew a big secret (well, not that big) from my coursemate i knew it they both likes each other i knew it i guess we should wait for them to declair weheee :D

aku rindu dia aku rindu dia aku rindu dia sangat sangat aku nak jumpa dia aku nak jumpa dia aku nak jumpa dia sangat sangat kesimpulannya aku nak dia aku nak hubungan kitaorg kembali mcm dulu... i miss him!

we met in the class i looked at him he looked at me we both locked gazed my heart was beating so hard i control my cool down i gave a smiled he smiled back to be honest, i missed him so much

first class aq attend tadi... well... agak ok la lecturer dia first time duduk depan haha agak cuak sbnarnya... tapi yeah, best jugak. maybe aq ptut berubah duduk depan pulak kan? hmm lepas class terus sakit kepala sikit hahaha maklumla mesin lama tak bergerak haha

to be honest... aq still xde mood nak pegi class dah 2 hari aq tak pegi class weh... but harini aq kena pegi sbb nak kena hantar assignment well it's a punishment assignment actually aq xdtg class dia isnin tu and so kena hantar harini kul 12pm karang class tuto sejam after that malas da aish please dont say lazy ... aq patut berubah dsbbkan skang da sem 3 lagipun pointer jatuh kot sem lepas damn it, qijae change for a fuck's sake

okay aq tak sangka housemate baru aq giler anime macam aq jugak punyalah dia punya excited semalam hahaha Syaza Ahmad an Otaku freak like me but she's freakier than me lol banyak giler koleksi anime dia tunggu aq beli hard disk je and then aq sedut semuanya dari dia hehe

hey... im going back to kuala pilah tomorrow morning there are lots feelings accumulated inside my heart and mind anxious, happy, scared, excited this will be a new chapter for me but a same fucking stressful life as a student i wish everything will be okay and just fine i dont know who's my roommate and housemate but i'll know tomorrow and i dont think i wanna go to class starting Monday because i still dont get the mood if you know what im saying and this is me a new semester third semester for a diploma science student will face a new challenge i wish all the best InsyaAllah Please dont allow yourself to wake up with yesterday's issues troubling your fucking mind. Refuse to live backwards, see everyday as a new chapter. 

maybe i was selfish. i'm sorry, mom.